Winter is here
I started weight-lifting again. About 3 years ago, after I broke up with my exes, I threw myself wholeheartedly into lifting weights and I got very fit. I dropped two clothing sizes and actually started to like my own body. I was by no means thin, but that wasn't important. I felt energised and started to find joy in exercise, which is something I have never felt in pretty much my entire life. Right now felt like a good time to start again, so I have. At the moment I am using two 5kg dumbbells and that's enough for me.
Things are tough right now. I'm going to a final court hearing next week, which I won't talk about in detail here, but it is emotionally exhausting and I just want it to be over. It WILL be over, soon. I have reached a level of acceptance with it and I have started to feel a release from the anxiety and stress that has weighed on me all year. And oh boy this year hasn't been a fun one for a lot of reasons, but the court thing is the biggest reason for me. It has consumed a lot of time, energy, money and tolerance from me. I have felt like a shadow, a scrunched up piece of paper, a towel that has been wrung out too harshly. I have spent the majority of this year feeling exhausted, too exhausted to think. Now I am trying to reserve some space in my life for the things I enjoy.
I bought myself some new glasses a couple of weeks ago, they are identical to the ones I have been wearing for a few years now, just with a stronger prescription because my eyesight has gotten worse. Within days of wearing them, the hinge one side became so bent that the arm was too loose for me to wear them. So now I have to return them and I am pretty disappointed. The old pair have been through hell, grabbed by toddlers, sat on several times and bent out of shape, but they are still pretty good. I would continue wearing them if it weren't for me needing stronger lenses. The quality of the new glasses was pretty poor. I hope they will refund me so I can pick another pair with a different hinge.
I have started selling stuff on vinted and so far it is going pretty well. It feels a bit chaotic on there, but things are selling. I like that they don't take a huge slice out of the profits the way Tradera does. I used to like Tradera but now they represent only corporate greed in my mind so it feels crappy to sell on there. But there are a few things that I can't sell on vinted so I will have to sell them there. I am trying to scrape together some extra money because the court fees have left me so poor, I can barely pay for anything on my student income.
This winter is going by so quickly that I become alarmed when it gets dark early now because I am still not expecting it to happen. It has gotten cold as well so I have brought out my winter coat and wool hats. It snowed a little bit a couple of weeks ago, and I am hoping that it will not snow again over Christmas but maybe it will. The weather has been a little bit strange this year. The summer was too short.
I have been adding a bunch of things to my website. I have added a shrine to my dogs and my grandparents, and another page full of my personal interests. I want to add more things. No idea what to add. Maybe I will start adding pages with more of my writing.