Still alive!
Entering the new year was pretty mental. I got all my exams done somehow and finished off SVA and Matematik 1. I got a C grade in Svenska and a D grade in Matematik. Not ideally what I was hoping for, especially since I got a B grade in SVA 2, but to be honest, I was so fed up by the time I needed to the end of course assignment that I just shat out whatever I could that met the criteria enough to be a pass. My teacher, although she was pretty tough at times, I think was a good teacher and my command of Svenska vastly improved over my time on the courses. I think she helped me improve my grammar and vocabulary and made me feel more confident when it came to speaking. I can do presentations in front of groups of people now without feeling like I am going to panic.
Samhällskunskap is excruciatingly boring. A lot of it is stuff I already know about politics and society. It makes it easy, but at the same time there are a ton of boring stuff I need to learn about the structure of EU parliament and how the voting system works etc. etc. and I find it a struggle to motivate myself to keep learning. My teacher doesn't care much, he is close to retiring. When we were due to have our most recent test, the whole class showed up on time for the exam and he didn't come. The headteacher came by 45 minutes after the exam was supposed to start to tell us that he wasn't come and the exam was cancelled. Everyone was pretty cheesed off, myself included.
I am falling behind with Nybörjare Tyska because I am not motivated at all. I have no online classes or anything, it's just "read the book, answer the questions" and it is incredibly dull. I learn much better in a classroom setting with real human beings. So I am doing the bare minimum to scrape by, which makes it especially hilarious that I got A and B grades on my assignments lol! Maybe I am trying too hard even when I am trying my best not to try at all!
I made my application to the högskola and I am crossing my fingers and toes that I will get accepted onto the Bibliotekarie course. I have applied for a couple of back-up programs but the Bibliotekarie course is on campus and I really don't want to do anymore distance studies so this would be perfect for me. There's no reason why I should be rejected but I will believe I've been accepted when I see it lol. Can't count one's chickens until they've hatched and all that.
This summer I might be doing Italian language, which I think will be better than the German course because there will be actually online classes with a teacher. I'm in two minds about doing it, but we'll see on that front. Learning languages is easy for me, generally speaking, but I have to be motivated otherwise it just falls by the wayside. I could say the same about most things to be honest. If something feels pointless then I can't, no matter how hard I try, apply as much energy to it as required.
We are moving in a couple of weeks' time because my boyfriend bought a house! I am really looking forward to it. We will be able to have separate bedrooms again, which is essential since he snores like a fucking freight-train LOL. But it will be especially nice to have a garden. We will have a south-facing veranda as well, so we can enjoy sitting in the sun during the summer-time. It's in the countryside too, surrounded by fields and forest. I never thought in my whole life that I would ever live somewhere like that, not because I didn't want to, but because I never could have afforded it. My boyfriend is a bit of a 'sugar daddy' sometimes LOL!
Unfortunately I have removed my books from Draft2Digital because they are going to start charging fees and I make so little money from book sales that it would end up costing me a whole lot more just to keep them up there than it would to take them down. I guess I will look for an alternative. I can always offer them directly from my homepage here, but no one will ever find them. It's a shame, but that's the way things are.