Hello 2026
I survived Christmas. It was nice visiting family, having family stay over, swapping gifts etc. but eating was a big problem again. I have a habit of gorging myself over the festive period, which I understand is pretty common for many people, but I don't want to do it anymore because I end up making myself sick. This time I was more moderated but I still feel like I ate too much. My sugar addiction is in full force. I started weight-lifting and doing regular yoga back in August 2025 after a lot time not exercising and managed to lose about 5kg in weight (go me!) but I put 2kg back on over Christmas. I don't feel like I have gotten rounder and my clothes fit the same, so I am just consoling myself but saying it is muscle not fat lol...
I am very close to finishing the Svenska and Matematik courses I have been studying. Two weeks to go now, and I have 6 exams squeezed into that time-frame, along with a few more lessons. I am so fucking tired of studying Swedish, I can't wait for it to be over so I can move on. The boredom and effort I have to put in just to motivate myself has been soul-destroying. Next I will continue with Nybörjare Tyska, Matematik 2b and Samhällskunskap, which I have heard should be kind of fun, but we'll see about that. So far, my education at Komvux has felt like a punishment. I am scared that högskola will be even worse.
I have hopes that this year will be better than the last one. The court process is over now so I won't have to sink so much money into paying for lawyers. The outcome wasn't what I hoped for, but I have to let go now, because holding onto it all last year was slowly killing me. Hopefully my boyfriend and I will buy a nice house in the country and I can move on with my life at last. It feels like I have been trapped in limbo for 6 years. I've been through so much hell, but I am the strongest I have ever been.
I saw on my book sales report that I sold 2 copies over the Christmas period, which makes me super happy! I hope that whoever bought them enjoys the stories, even though I feel that my later work is much better. I am currently working on a project that I intend to release at some point and I think my structure, language and plotting is much more efficient than my first book. It feels cringey to go back and read ones own work from many years ago so I am trying to avoid doing that, but I am tempted to translate my old books to Swedish. I also thought about rehashing the old stories, rewriting them a bit and improving on them a lot, but I don't know if that's okay. Once it's published, it's published, I guess?
I haven't had much time to work on my website lately, but I will come back to it soon enough.